For the last few years I have been getting lost and further lost... Have you had that? Your relationships fall apart, your work life falls apart, everything you do just seems to... well fall apart? This had been happening to me. Not overnight and not enough at first for me to really notice.
Not only was I lost but things in life were just no longer making sense, I was directionless, broken, empty and mistrusting of people and probably the world in general. Now when I say this it is a generalisation because of course there were still days when the sun shone from within, where I would smile be happy and be grateful for amazing people and opportunities. But eventually they would all feel empty and this is such an important part to tell, they would FEEL empty. Now that I have hindsight and a small army of spiritual teachers and guides by my side I can see that I was just moving further and further away from my purpose. From what I was really meant to be doing.
Anyway, in January of 2015 everything was really coming to the point of collision, I was feeling low, I was feeling as though I no longer knew who I was, what I believed in, where I was going and if I could and was doing anything right as a Mum, a Fiancee, a Person, a Business Person, a Team Leader, etc... Over the next few months I would reach breaking point where my mental and physical health would feel the brunt of it all and I began to close and shut down.
My first change was to get help, I called my health visitor and she was amazing, put me in touch with some great resources to help me get back on the track. This, I now know was not a coincidence!
A few other people entered my life to help me reach balance but the part where I started to realise I was actually getting help from the other side was when my eldest daughter and I took advantage of a free Cream Tea in Brixham that we won in a raffle many months ago.
I start to notice...Kiesha and I arrive in Brixham with Alina (my youngest) in tow. It is rare for Kiesha and I to spend together as my toddlers demand attention at practically every waking moment so I was really looking forward to it. We park the car and I enter the postcode into the maps app on my phone (I know so technically savvy!). We walk in what actually is the completely the wrong direction (again this is no coincidence) but as we do I see a sign outside a shop called Featherz & Wingz about readings. I ask Kiesha if she would like to find out about having a reading. Enthusiastically she says yes as she is intrigued. They did not have any appointments available but we booked one for each of us the following week. We came back out of the shop and all of a sudden I know where we need to go in order to get to Millie & Me (freaky right?).
|Kiesha and Alina at Millie & Me Brixham|